save it for the morning after.

2011-11-06T08:23:00.000-08:00

im fat.
tired.
stupid.
ugly.
fucked off.
generally not good.

2011-11-01T11:53:00.000-07:00

Pissed off beyond belief.
I just spent loads of time looking in to sixth forms I want to go to, and my mum just sat there playing a a game on the computer not listening to me then turned around and said I was too bone idle to go to the place I want to go, fuck her? she didn't even hear it right? stupid bitch, i'm going to prove her wrong.

have so much to do tonight and just can not be fucked, not in a good mood at all! I was in such a good mood and now she's ruined it! just because I don't want to end up in a supermarket like her.

I went on the crosstrainer for the first time (starting my diet - note to self: give up chocolate&crisps) and did 50 sit ups, ad burned 100 calories, thats so good for my first day and I was so happy with it! she hardly looked up from her screen and muttered its hardly going to make a difference is it..

I just wish I was like selena gomez, she's so stunning and has an amazing body and I just want to be hot like her:(

fuck my actual life tbh.

school tommorrow -.-

2011-10-30T12:02:00.000-07:00

so basically.
first half term of the year, being year 11 its just dawned on me how little time I have left, and how much work I actually have to do.
I have been looking at sixth forms, and have a lot of options but really want to go to one but unfortunately its out of my catchment area and they only take 20% of their students out of that area, that's a slim chance. I don't want to go in my area, I know everyone, last year I was a bit of a slag, to say the least. But this year I barely go out and being cocky last year at school everyone hates me and even out of school I don't have anyone to fall back on, LOL AT MY LIFE - moving is my only option, I've been relocated alot alot alot, so only being in my current school for two years sucks, everyone has their cliques though I LOVE MY FRIENDS. I like to move, I don't resent it at all, the amount of friends I have is insane, just not here, I miss it, like I become friends with people and then get cocky and think I'm all that so slag them off, which makes them just another enemy.
BLAH.

This half term was 'ite', I use that term loosely, it could of been better, could of been worse, just sick of my friends blowing me off, I've fallen back on my old friends, before I moved to china, these were my 'main gals' i love them to pieces, but they just never make solid plans, but I wouldn't trade them for the world especially my best friend, phoebe.